Journal Entry - 27/12/10, 4:45am

I wonder when or even if the effort I put into relationships, friendships, uni and work will ever matter. I'm struggling to think of a valid reason as to why I bother to reach anymore, why I put up with the pain, why I hope. I'm stuck, stuck now in a life of only dreaming, a life of "what ifs", and "should haves" and "would haves". I'm left frozen, forgettable and forgotten, when the rest of the world moves...and I really don't know how to catch up.