In the second half of last year, after just finishing my degree, I quit my casual job. I did so because 1) I didn't like it, and 2) I thought I was ready to look for work in my degree field. I was wrong.

Up until now I'm unemployed, and still unsure of myself. I can't even get myself to look for another casual job, and I think that's because working; whether it be studying or actual working for money, has never felt really "worth while". I feel like any job I ever got, I only did so because someone else wanted to have it. And I haven't yet celebrated for myself or really felt happy that I finished a uni degree. It doesn't even matter, not yet anyway ( hopefully).

I need something to turn this around. To motivate me to really try again. To get me excited about the future. To allow me to see a positive future. But I don't know what.

Whatever it is, I need it soon. Because I'm feeling... finished.